Saturday, January 31, 2009

dude. i understand. but please. let me rant.

NO.

they say to say no is the hardest thing to do. and if by any chance one manages to, well congrats. you are one of the privileged to have the greatest willpower.

we say no for good reasons, for our betterment and for our self fulfillment. but sometimes, it is just fucking irritating when you are told no when you were told yes weeks ago.

look.i understand. promise. i am in the same position as yours. but please understand if i just want to rant. im a person trapped in this system--my body and if i dont let the inconsistencies and frustrations and grievances out, i will burst.

and my god, i can think of more situations where my body would be so useful than just let it explode like that.

the thing is, only few are privileged to have that alchemy night. for free. with free transpo, free drinks (most likely kasi someone pledged to sponsor) and free entrance and best of all, free boarding and lodging and breakfast and lunch (prolly) in our house in the morning. all you have to do is dress up and go. ta-da! you are now in tra-la-la land :D

and i know that you have tons to do. tons to think of. tons to contemplate on. but i reserved you two weeks ago. i begged for your time. asked you to call it off and spend time with me, to alchemy and dance the night away. but best of all, experience a surprise i prepared that will turn every person in alchemy into putty with envy.

unfortunately, the "babawi thing" is not really a good wager for the inis i am totally feeling right now. (damn it kung sa embassy pa pala ako nagpareserve edi napahiya lang ako)

look. i understand i just feel so bad and frustrated that all i did and all i planned for two weeks ago was well.. turned into pop! air.

tapos thing is, di ko na nagawa ung surprise.

i mean i can't go and party kung wala naman talaga ung reason nun for the party diba?

hayy sayang naman talaga. ciempre nahihiya din ako for the people i bothered just to help me with the surprise.

too bad na lang nhet.

sorry guys if you are to read this. i mean i understood you naman kaya i didn't text na lang. i just want to let my frustrations out.

siguro mejo pass na muna ako sa paginvite sa inyo. matatagalan na rin lang siguro.

posted by anthonette at 2:01 AM